Wednesday, October 1, 2008

No Excuses. What is MY Excuse? Part 2

This is my story. No lies. No holding back. Find part 1, here.

So, after I lost the weight and was finally "happy" with myself, I feel like I went off the deep end. I still wasn't, by any means, a "bad" person, I just wasn't following the most moral path.

I finally had boys interested in me. I was thrilled. I took full advantage. I did things I am certainly not proud of, now, and dated more boys then I would like to admit. However, during this time is when I met Andy, and little did I know, he would be part of my saving grace.

I also liked to have fun with alcohol, the occasional cigarette, and other substances. I didn't go too hog wild, here, but I was underage and I was smoking the occasional joint. BAD.

Again, I didn't think anything of this. I just wanted to fit in! After going SO many years without really fitting in, I was desperate to do anything that would make me the least bit "cool."

I graduated early from High School. I went to High School for only three years. I had the credits, the grades, and I desperately wanted to go to college. I really craved that lifestyle!

I had known Andy for awhile. I really didn't like him at first. I found him to be highly hypocritical. See, he went to a Christian school, had a great Christian family, but was a BAD BAD kid. He smoked, drank, and really wasn't the most honest of people (when we first met) He was dating a friend of mine, and during that time we saw each other quite a bit. We were at the same prom, went to a few of the same movies, mall trips, etc. etc. Even with hanging out with him, as much as I did, I still didn't like him. He seemed arrogant and as I said before, highly hypocritical. That is...until my BFF broke up with him.

After they broke up, we started talking more and more and hanging out more and more. I had made it very clear I didn't want to monogamously date anyone, because I was too busy dating half of the city.

Over time, and after many stupid "mistakes," Andy and I went out on a couple of dates, and well... you know the rest.

BUT- I still wasn't so sure about this GOD of whom he spoke. I wouldn't help him with his Bible homework, because I really could have cared less. I just really wanted nothing to do with God, period. I think, looking back, that I knew in my heart what was right, I just wanted to pretend it didn't really exist. I wanted to pretend that GOD didn't exist.

OK- the final part (3) to come soon... trust me, it ends happily ever after.... ;)


Elaine A. said...

To the last sentence I say "Well of course it did and Thank GOD!" ; )

Beth (A Mom's Life) said...

The teen years are so hard. All anyone wants at that time is to fit in.

I am already praying for my kids!

jessicamarie12 said...

Dating half the city... that line cracked me up. :)

Momo Fali said...

If my kids make half the mistakes I made as a teenager, it will still be too many.

Stacy said...

I think every kids goes through experimentation of some sort to find themselves. You don't sound like you were tooooo bad. ;)

Yeah, dating half the city...I had to laugh at that one LOL!

Dawn said...

The teen years ARE hard - hard for the kids who are experimenting with stuff and hard for the kids who try to stay on the right path (ie. me) - it's hard either way.

God is good and sees us through, though, and all in patience and love. He constantly pursues us with love but He rarely bullies us. He's so gentle.

Fire Hunt said...

I know the end and I like it.

Kathryn said...

I'm intruiged. Can't wait for part 3! :)

Angie @ KEEP BELIEVING said...

LOVE reading this story so far. LOVE IT.


My Goodness said...

When we seek, we's His promise.

looking forward to the finale!

Maya said...

Very cool that you are sharing your story like this Brittany!

Sassy said...

Can I buy the book? I just NEED to know how this ends.

I am proud of you for opening up your heart and sharing. It feels vulnerable and yet pure to be exposed, doesn't it?
Very impressive B!