Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Four Years


Four years ago, today, our family changed forever. I lost someone very special to me; a person with great strength, great wisdom, and overwhelming love for his family.

When grandpa passed away we weren't on the best of terms.Grandpa and I had our differences, and we had our own opinions on certain issues. We were in a period of life, where we didn't smile at one another when we saw each other and there was a lot of hurt between us. I really was pushing those I loved the most out of my life, for no apparent reason, and I really wish things had been different at the time. I remember wanting to get to the hospital while he was still alive. I needed to ask him for forgiveness and I needed to tell him how much I loved him. I had that opportunity. He couldn't answer me, but I know in my heart he heard me. I know he forgave me. I know he loved me, as much as I loved him.

I wish he could have met Adam and Matthew. He would be so in love with them, so proud of all that "Stickel" in them. He'd be one of their favorite people, I just know it! I pray he can see them now, and I pray he's smiling down on them. (Ps, Grandpa- Matthew is your twin. I see your smirk, every time he smiles at me. He's so Stickel!)

Anyway- to a man of great honor, to someone I love and miss very much. To my grandpa, forever and ever. I pray I'll see you again. :)

9 comments:

Kellan said...

Oh, this was a sweet tribute to a man that was so important to you and that you obviously loved very much! I'm sure he forgave you and loved you just as much. You will see him again one day - I'm sure of it!

Take care - Kellan

Fire Hunt said...

You made me cry. We miss him also.

Elaine A. said...

Such a beautiful post. I pray the same thing for both of you...

My Goodness said...

That's beautiful, Brittany. What a blessing to have had him in your life!

Arizaphale said...

Anniversaries can be hard. Glad you had a chance to say goodbye and make peace.

jessicamarie12 said...

I miss him!! :( Your blog is making me tear up at work!

Sara said...

Very sweet Brittany. I've missed you!

buckeyemomma said...

Well, I missed reading this when it was fresh..I've been offline a bit myself. I thought of this day when it arrived and I'm always saddened by it. He was an awesome man, and he loved you dearly. We talked about it alot. I'm blessed that he married Greg and I, you and Andy, and Mindy and Jay..I think that's one of the coolest things ever that we all got that experience while we had him here with us!

Maya said...

It's amazing to see what an impact he made on your life.