Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Four years ago, today, our family changed forever. I lost someone very special to me; a person with great strength, great wisdom, and overwhelming love for his family.
When grandpa passed away we weren't on the best of terms.Grandpa and I had our differences, and we had our own opinions on certain issues. We were in a period of life, where we didn't smile at one another when we saw each other and there was a lot of hurt between us. I really was pushing those I loved the most out of my life, for no apparent reason, and I really wish things had been different at the time. I remember wanting to get to the hospital while he was still alive. I needed to ask him for forgiveness and I needed to tell him how much I loved him. I had that opportunity. He couldn't answer me, but I know in my heart he heard me. I know he forgave me. I know he loved me, as much as I loved him.
I wish he could have met Adam and Matthew. He would be so in love with them, so proud of all that "Stickel" in them. He'd be one of their favorite people, I just know it! I pray he can see them now, and I pray he's smiling down on them. (Ps, Grandpa- Matthew is your twin. I see your smirk, every time he smiles at me. He's so Stickel!)
Anyway- to a man of great honor, to someone I love and miss very much. To my grandpa, forever and ever. I pray I'll see you again. :)